hope is debilitating
people say its better to love and lost,
but they really dont know the cost,
pathetic whining, crying, please please, one more chance
you want to move on
try to get better
but you can't
because hope
hope becomes pain
can i do this again
pain becomes despair
this isn't fair
pain becomes hope
I really can cope
then you meet another
decide this one is better
you forget your promise
never again, never again
your heart becomes a commodity
traded so easily
trusted too readily
it won't be broken, not this time
but will it?
the doubts come creeping
your confidence wavering
is this false hope?
is this false hope?
my heart breaks
my mind dies
my bones ache
my soul flys
i seek only repentance
a form of self vengeance
but can i right this wrong?
or is it all now gone?
whatever happens i know
that justice has been served
the chaotic mix of colours
srimson, gold and orange
the sun breathes its last
now night descends,fast
black blue and grey
these colours enslave
despair the death of day!
it is the time for fear
blinded grounded caged
the night grips me
crazed fazed dazed
the night owns me
with righteous intent i pray
please i want to be saved!
light bright and pure
this i desire for sure!
chaos laughs screams
order quakes in fear
suddenly lo and behold!
light streams pure and bold!
crimson orange and gold
bursts forth with glory
i greet mornings embrace
like friends of old
When I think about you,
and all that you do,
and all that you are,
nowhere is too far,
I will travel anywhere,
through rain sleet snow,
there's nowhere i wont go,
no matter what, i know,
that i will see you soon,
that beautiful smile,eyes,
wonder just how,what,I
did to deserve you
you are everything to me,
and i hope you can see,
just how amazing you are,
and just how far,
i will go to see you
I love to see you smile,
I love to see you laugh,
I want you in my arms,
even just for a while,
I'd hate to see you cry,
I would rather die,
I'd hate to see you mad,
I would be so sad,
elsie you are special to me,
and you always will be,
the only thing i want,
is you to be happy,
elsie
i thought i was complete
until i saw you
i never believed in love at first sight
until i saw you
i think about you every single night
you complete my world,
it makes my heart skip a beat
when i hear your voice
it sweeps me off my feet
i thought i was whole
until i saw you
i never believed in love at first sight
you're my eternal light
only for you I will ever sacrifice my life
in all forms, mental and physical
I will go through any and all strife
If i could just spend a day with you
i so badly want to say "i love you"
oh you are amazing
everytime i see you
my eyes go hazy
i dont know what to do
i want to see you everyday
and I've always wanted to say
"i think about u all the time
i really want you to be mine"
oh you are amazing
evertime i see you
i almost go crazy
if only you knew
how i feel about u
if u feel like this too
then shout it out to the sky
i don't want to know y
just that we can be two
that's how i feel about you
hope is debilitating
people say its better to love and lost,
but they really dont know the cost,
pathetic whining, crying, please please, one more chance
you want to move on
try to get better
but you can't
because hope
hope becomes pain
can i do this again
pain becomes despair
this isn't fair
pain becomes hope
I really can cope
then you meet another
decide this one is better
you forget your promise
never again, never again
your heart becomes a commodity
traded so easily
trusted too readily
it won't be broken, not this time
but will it?
the doubts come creeping
your confidence wavering
is this false hope?
is this false hope?
my heart breaks
my mind dies
my bones ache
my soul flys
i seek only repentance
a form of self vengeance
but can i right this wrong?
or is it all now gone?
whatever happens i know
that justice has been served
the chaotic mix of colours
srimson, gold and orange
the sun breathes its last
now night descends,fast
black blue and grey
these colours enslave
despair the death of day!
it is the time for fear
blinded grounded caged
the night grips me
crazed fazed dazed
the night owns me
with righteous intent i pray
please i want to be saved!
light bright and pure
this i desire for sure!
chaos laughs screams
order quakes in fear
suddenly lo and behold!
light streams pure and bold!
crimson orange and gold
bursts forth with glory
i greet mornings embrace
like friends of old
When I think about you,
and all that you do,
and all that you are,
nowhere is too far,
I will travel anywhere,
through rain sleet snow,
there's nowhere i wont go,
no matter what, i know,
that i will see you soon,
that beautiful smile,eyes,
wonder just how,what,I
did to deserve you
you are everything to me,
and i hope you can see,
just how amazing you are,
and just how far,
i will go to see you
I love to see you smile,
I love to see you laugh,
I want you in my arms,
even just for a while,
I'd hate to see you cry,
I would rather die,
I'd hate to see you mad,
I would be so sad,
elsie you are special to me,
and you always will be,
the only thing i want,
is you to be happy,
elsie
i thought i was complete
until i saw you
i never believed in love at first sight
until i saw you
i think about you every single night
you complete my world,
it makes my heart skip a beat
when i hear your voice
it sweeps me off my feet
i thought i was whole
until i saw you
i never believed in love at first sight
you're my eternal light
only for you I will ever sacrifice my life
in all forms, mental and physical
I will go through any and all strife
If i could just spend a day with you
i so badly want to say "i love you"
oh you are amazing
everytime i see you
my eyes go hazy
i dont know what to do
i want to see you everyday
and I've always wanted to say
"i think about u all the time
i really want you to be mine"
oh you are amazing
evertime i see you
i almost go crazy
if only you knew
how i feel about u
if u feel like this too
then shout it out to the sky
i don't want to know y
just that we can be two
that's how i feel about you
The signs point in different directions
But there is only one road to take
There is a feeling thats guiding me
To a horizon that seems to be fake
I could make all of these promises
That all thats ahead is real
But you could never be quite sure
You have no idea how you feel
Im always trying to tell myself
Well find a way to make it through
But I know that this is not my choice
Our fate rests with only you
All the time that we spent
Everything that we fought for
Things have been difficult
But I still need more
Its like youre my addiction
And I dont want to lose this high
All I knew wa
To live in death
To run away
We all depart
No way to stay
Pictures fade
But memories stay
No need to be saddened
We want it this way
Our time to leave
Is not always the same
As what you want it to be
There's just no one to blame
Better to live on in sadness
Have a ghost chase away all your fears
A death with a hundered sad faces
Is better than one with no tears
I write because I can
I write because I will
I write what's on my mind
And I write that with a quille
No need for memory
Or any sign of sin
Just some words from my mind
And here's where it begins
...
I sit in a room of hurt and dispair
Maybe start writing about that girl crying over there
She seems so lifeless, tired and weak
With long black and red hair covering her face while she weeps
...
They aren't always right
They aren't always true
They aren't always about me
Not all about you
...
But they're about something
I'm yet to find out what
They come from my mind
Sometimes from my heart
...
I can write of love
I can
Current Residence: inside my mind Favourite genre of music: ditto Favourite photographer: ditto Favourite style of art: dunno MP3 player of choice: i-pod Skin of choice: i think i'd rather wear my own skin : ) Favourite cartoon character: patrick from spongebob [] pants Personal Quote: peace isn't the absense of conflict but the presence of justice
Favourite Visual Artist
ditto
Favourite Movies
dont have one
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
too many to list
Favourite Writers
dont know any poets
Favourite Games
frontlines fuel of war
Favourite Gaming Platform
xbox 360, PC ect.
Tools of the Trade
imagination... i know it's cliche but seriously...
this is my first ever journal entry and it is 3 am, i haven't had any sleep but funnily enough im not tired, but really really bored. I'm gonna feel soooo bad tommorow, i gotta get up at 7 to catch the bus to school = ( sooo yeah, i've had insomnia a bit lately, usually when i need to get up early the next day or do some hard work like karate or a 10 hour shift at work =. it feels kinda weird, not being tired, but you actually are, maybe i should write about that, feeling both ends of the spectrum at once..what do you think?
bye bye, and if you actually read this, thank you!